Finally hit a wall about 6:30 or 7:00. I really do realize now that I absolutely can not go the way that I used to before the chemotherapy started. I feel great one minute and then a few minutes later I am looking for the nearest place to plant my butt. Today was such a great day. Lots of messages from friends and relatives and there were a few people here for a little bbq. The weather even cooperated with us as it only drizzled on us a little tiny bit. LOTS of food and laughter. I got a few phone calls that seriously brought me to tears this morning and it felt oddly refreshing to shed those tears. I do not have a clue why those particular people brought that out in me but they were used by God in my opinion and they don't even have a clue that I was crying when they hung up. It is dark out now and I am more than ready to go to sleep.
My family is all safely tucked away in their respective homes and I will fall asleep knowing that all is well in my soul.
Today everyone that was here got to see my new Ostrich feather hair do. Quite a show stopper! Maybe will post some pictures when I figure this out a little more since my photographer was not here today.
Good night and thank you all for the birthday wishes. They were truly a blessing to me today.
I used to call my mother and ask her how she was doing, she would respond "I'm still keeking", without her accent it would be "I'm still kicking". This is my story, my thoughts in the middle of the night when I am alone or the middle of the day surrounded by loved ones but still alone in my mind. You are only as sick as your biggest secret and I'm pretty sick(in more ways than one,tee hee!). So this blog is going to show you what goes on in the mind of a REAL Macho Woman! scarey.
4 comments:
Good night Julie...so glad your birthday was so blessed! What would we do without our friends and family? More importantly, what would we do without Jesus? Love you!
Glad that you had a good birthday with messages, family and friends. Your Ostrich feather hair do sounds interesting! Hope this week finds you the energy you need when you need it.
You did so great mama! Everyone had such a great time and seemed confirmed just being near you. You stuck it out as long as you could, but Ryan made a good point just now. He said that it is our responsibility to do the entertaining now, not yours. And we welcome that. So when you re pooped, don't feel guilty going and resting. Rest knowing everything is being taken care of, and we all love you so much and understand. I live you and had such a great time with you!!!
*sigh* by "confirm" I mean "comforted" and by "live" I mean "love" :) this iPod auto corrects! Ha!
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