I had almost finished my blog for the day and it kicked me out for some reason and I never even uttered a @#$%^. So I will try again.
This morning has been a very good morning and I think that I am reaching something in my being because out of nowhere I had tears running down my face for absolutely no reason. Not bitter and angry tears, just tears that were from somewhere deep and quiet...you know that place...the ones that we aren't even aware of because they are so quiet and sneaky when they come out. They are very personal and really have no meaning for anyone except the one shedding them. This morning it was me shedding them and they felt like a quiet rain on a terribly parched heart. They were like little chrystals of light in my heart and I felt so safe and at peace. I truly believe that the Lord was ministering to me while I was cleaning out an old plant that had been neglected over the last few months. I just happened to be in the room that my mother lived in while she stayed with us and I felt like her just staying busy doing something to pass the time and not feel sick and useless. I miss her so much today. I would hug her and hold her and ask her if I had loved her enough...
I bet there were days that she felt the presence of the Lord just the way that I have this morning and I bet the she would say "yes, Julie , I am Loved enough".
Mark is busy working on our master bed room and soon I will have a lovely place for all of my books.
Whitney and Ryan and Julianna and Logan are all busy having a wonderful family day upstairs and Summer and Dana and Autumn and Dominic are probably snow bound in Lewistown AND Reg and Colleen and their kids are having fun in Spokane. My family is safe and God is totally in control!
THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE, I SHALL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT!
Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding
The first ring
Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!
Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.
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I thought of you this morning as I was waiting for Spokane's Race for the Cure to begin and again as I ran and finished. I was in a sea of pink sprinkled with amazing women and their supporters. Our shirts said "The path is always easier when you take it with friends." I'm so happy to hear that you have your family to help you along your path.
Thank you Erin. Were you wearing a little bling?
So proud of you mama!
Tears sometimes can be healing. I know I'm a big crying baby. What is cool is that God saves all our tears in heaven. I don't have the address in front of me but you know our tears have to be special for him to save them. Your on my heart every morning. I know that God is going to make this test a huge testimony. All our love.
Yes, Aunt Tommie did love you a lot. She talked about you and Rachel all the time. Her and mom. Of course, you know how they both were - sometimes we could do no bad and other times, well you know. The one thing I always knew about them was that no matter where we were or how they felt about us, they always loved us. They weren't the kind of mothers who smothered us with hugs and kisses. I know Aunt Tommie is watching you and saying, "Aye mija," and she would be cooking some of her delicious torts and beans and hot chili. Hang in there and lots of hugs and kisses in my mind.
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