Night before portacath

So I got a call this afternoon from the hospital to remind me of my appt. for surgery in the morning and "by the way please bring $750.00 with you as a prepay/down payment" or something like that. They waited until the day before to tell me that? I asked what happens to people that don't have $750.00 when they come in. Seriously what happens to these poor people that don't have a cent and have cancer?  I guess I will ask if my chemo will be prepay as well when I walk in with my $750.00. I always have questions and they seem not to have answers for me just like today. She said that she could not answer until she spoke with her director. Poor girl, I know she was only doing her job but it did put a little damper on my day :(  But only for a little while. Tomorrow I will speak with her director.
Am busy doing my work in my office so that I can come home tomorrow and crash. Reg stopped by and worked on my laptop and I have lots of new stuff on it.
I am sort of sensing a little feeling of guilt because I will be mounting up the dollars in medical bills...I think that most women feel that way when we are the caregivers and all of a sudden we are the ones that need the care. I have SO many people that have stepped up and offering to help with all sorts of things and I am humbled by their love and compassion for this old war horse.
My mind feels sort of  scattered because I don't really know where to start and I really don't want to start anything because I need to prepare for tomorrow. Wow, I sound a little on the daffy side  by the comment I just made ....'spring broke no clang clang' like Kay says.
I know everything will work out and I believe that God is in control but I am wondering if just maybe He doesn't need a little of my help by worrying and fretting...See, I told you....koo koo koo koo !
HA!  God is so totally in this and He really is gonna say "WATCH THIS". Miracles will abound and I get a front row seat. Yee Haw!