I think I must have hit a wall all of a sudden because I am REALLY tired right now. Not hungry, angry or lonely but I sure am pooped! The evil twins fear and doubt are sniffing around me so am going to need some prayer please. I keep reading into things said and the outcome is pretty gloomy. I am going to snuggle into my bed and read my bible and some other good stuff.
This morning I read that Melissa Etheridge prepared for her journey of breast cancer by gathering her "flashlights"--her friends and family members that would help her shine light into the fearful darkness. I thought that was kinda cool.
Tomorrow morning is my MRI and afterwards is my first appointment with the oncologist, Dr. Martin. I feel a sense of impending doom. Doesn't mean it's true, it's just what I am feeling;
so no one chastise me for being human please.
Mark made great headway on the basement today, am excited for my new 'digs'.
Father, my eyes are on you only. YOU are my flashlight tonight.
Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding
The first ring
Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!
Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.
7 comments:
I will start stalking up on my spriritual batteries so that my light stays bright for you! I can't wait to see your pink helmet! Ha! Where was that when you tripped the other day, maybe see if they have some knee and elbow pads too please! I love you Mother, I love you for being perfectly human!
I work up thinking about you as I get ready to take Vern up to his appointment. I'll be praying for until I hear your results. It's ok to be doubtful and scared, that's when other carry you.
I remember the statement that "feelings are feelings, they cannot be right or wrong". We just feel, and when you have someone you trust to share those feelings with, who will just accept them as feelings, that sure is a good thing.
Good morning Julie, I am praying for you this morning and I will do my best to be one of your flashlights! As for your "being human"...that's the best part about you and what drew me to you long ago as a friend. I always loved the way you speak your heart. Know that arms are around you today, mine and Jesus.
First of all In the Name of Jesus we bind them 'sniff'in dogs', fear and doubt. Lord I ask that you fill Julie with your love, peace and joy and that faith in Your power abounds in her today. Amen.
In time of fear and doubt is when we have to really watch the words we speak. I have been going through a situation where those ugly sniff'in dogs want to nag me. I would wake up at night with it. Then I realized I don't have to put up with that. I started telling the devil to 'shut up'. Sometimes I would literally hit my pillow (I'd pretend it was the devil's face) and always bind him outloud. I didn't care if it woke Gene, the devil is not going to live in my home and he is not going to affect my mind. You know, all of a sudden he's not around as much. He never woke me once last night. I think the devil is fleeing! Daaaaaaaaaa The Word works. Glory to God.
Julie,you have a peaceful, hopeful, faith filled day.
We will be shining bright for you down here.
Love ya
You are first in my morning thoughts and I send a prayer your way. Stay strong. I understand because each year I ask God to let my grandchildren one more day. I am giving you a hug in my mind.
<3 I love you so much.
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