Mark and I had a wonderful weekend visit with Summer and Dana and Autumn and Dominic!!! I also got to visit with Vickie and Wendy and Curt and Noreen and RELAX in between ;)
 When we got home, we were in for such a great surprize as some of our friends had gotten together and put up kitchen cupboards and our new home is getting closer to completion.  I was blown away with how awesome it turned out.  I was in on the secret as everyone wanted to surprise Mark but I had no idea how great it was going to look! Mark was deeply moved and it was fun to see that we had finally surprised him with something.  He is the hardest person in the world to get 'one over on'. Thank you does not even come close to saying how grateful we are for this incredible act of kindness.  Summer and Whitney were in the middle of all of this so it all fell into place perfectly.
So, I drove myself to physical therapy this morning and I think that it went well.  I like the girl that is helping me and she was very informative about what is going on with my arm and about how all of the lymph nodes and etc. work.  The exercises don't seem too impossible and I am not to ever have blood drawn from my left arm and do not take blood pressure there either and yadda yadda yadda...After the great events over the week end and all of the emotions of gratitude and love, what is this dark cloud that came out of nowhere and settled in for a little bit?  I so hate it when my mind takes off into the abyss of negative feelings that sneak up on me.  My life is so blessed and I truly feel that I am highly favored by God so what the heck was I getting my panties in a bundle over?  Who knows?  My mind went koo koo without the koo koo juice and I ran with it...Poor Whitney.  She and Summer can sense when their mother's head is beginning to spin. Whit lives here though so she gets to see when I am certifiable. Even if my pupils are pin points and my lips are pursed, thank goodness I have learned to keep my mouth shut and keep my thoughts to myself.
We raked the yard together and started talking about 'what ever' and the mood seemed to lift. 
Wish I could blame it on the heat or something  but the only thing that I can change is how I react to moments like this.  If I really get honest, I think that I got a little (ok, alot) ticked off at how my life is SO NOT like I thought it would be at 61 :(   Yes, I know...some of you out there can relate...but, when I really think about it, it is exactly as it is supposed to be :)  But boy it is not easy to keep rolling with the punches. 
There, I feel so much better...sorry if I was a Debby Downer there for a minute... I have climbed back in the saddle and I am hanging on for the ride again :)
clomp, clomp, clomp....here I go....I'm not riding very fast but I'm  a going. Giddy up old gray mare.