I went to my breast cancer support group yesterday because I felt that I really needed to be with some ladies that are going through this same journey that I am on.  There was a new lady there and I knew her from several years ago.  A real blast from the past!  The look of fear/confusion/disbelief on her face was all too fresh in my mind.  She did not recognize me at first.  She said she recognized my smile...really? ....do I look that different?....oh yes, I do.  When she knew me I was 20 lbs. thinner and had tons of long dark hair and no glasses (and I had boobs :)  
The meeting was awesome because there were several ladies that were many years cancer free.  They were volumes of information.  The new lady kept asking me questions because she has not had her mastectomy yet and no chemo either.  I mean she literally JUST found out her diagnosis.  She kept asking me questions that I had asked and I felt strange hearing myself share my experience because I am so new myself.   When I was driving home I realized that my journey has only just begun but already the Lord is showing me that none of this will be in vain.  I must share my experience strength and hope in this as well.  
My hair is growing back and it is white peach fuzz.  I am thinking that I will probably lose that with the 12 weeks of chemo that are coming up. 
I am feeling ever so blessed to have the husband that I have, especially after hearing that one of the ladies in our group is going to be left alone as her partner does not think that he can handle living with a woman with one breast!  I was dumbfounded  when I heard this!
The raw emotions and honesty in this group is beyond words and I can only say that I am humbled to be a member of this amazing group of women. 
Dana and Summer and babies will be here tonight.  It is Logan's birthday Monday and we are celebrating it tomorrow.  Two years old already!  I will be here when he is celebrating his 30th and beyond!  Holy Cow, I will be an old fart!
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