This morning is the first of my next 12 rounds of chemo. Is that the right way to say this? Is each dose considered a round? I feel a little tired this morning. I think it is sort of a defeated feeling which I don't like. I have praise music on while I swig down my energy drink :) This is a daily thing for me as I do my 'stuff' on the computer. The music I listen to is scripture on cd and it is very calming for my spirit. The one that is playing now says " I rise before dawn and I cry for help. I have put my hope in your word" I LOVE IT!
My next three days are pretty appt. filled. I also get fitted for the stocking thingy that I will wear on my left arm where all of the lymph glands were taken out. I guess I need it in case I get lymphedema.
Very interesting. Need to research lymphedema. I just know that it is not good and I was given massage lessons to manage it.
Summer and Dominic are coming from Lewistown to sit with me, Whit and Mark while I get my chemo treatment. We may sit out in the solarium. Sletten Cancer Institute is a beautiful facility and it is very homey. It will be my 'haunt' for the next 12 Wednesdays.
I will hide myself in the Lord and I will be just fine...He has shown me so much mercy in my past and this is no different. He will shelter me from evil.
Get your batteries charged Flashlights because the fun begins again and I am a little weary. The floodgates of tears are just about to burst and I am relying totally on prayers and the love of my friends and family.
Here I go...I have a little of the Barney Fife look ....but I will survive this next step to my recovery.
Love you all!
I used to call my mother and ask her how she was doing, she would respond "I'm still keeking", without her accent it would be "I'm still kicking". This is my story, my thoughts in the middle of the night when I am alone or the middle of the day surrounded by loved ones but still alone in my mind. You are only as sick as your biggest secret and I'm pretty sick(in more ways than one,tee hee!). So this blog is going to show you what goes on in the mind of a REAL Macho Woman! scarey.
9 comments:
Yes you will survive lovely Lala feel my love and strong vibes for you on this next phase of your journey of healing. Big hugs to you!
The best is yet to be. Believe in all your might. JESUS HUGS. Firefly
My heart and my prayers are always with you. Grandsons are visiting, so it's a very special time for me. Love and miss you - Is.
Boy Julie, I'm right there with you! You are in my prayers. Tell Mark I said HI. I miss hearing him and Doug laugh together on Monday nites. Just writing this has made me cry again. I realize I am so not in control and have no one to rely on but Jesus. Love you my friend. May his loving arms comfort you through this journey as he has in the past. Janice W.
to all of you......Love and our hugs are right there for everyone. " Wheeza " aka George & I are saying prayers strong for each of you. Love to all......God never let's us go so hang on strong. melanie
Batteries are in full charge and prayers are always with you and your family. I love you my friend, and even though I'm not there my arms are around you!
Phil. 4:13
Carla
I sense your sadness and tiredness and know that you will become stronger for enduring this crazy and destructive illness. My spiritual advisor from early days of sobriety told me once that we grow in those valleys because we are in constant prayer trying to get "up that hill".
Oh, I pray we can all be strong for you in prayer and carry you on wings of prayer. To you Julie and to Mark we send our love. To Janice if she reads this, may our prayers lift you today as well, our dear friend. love, Patti and Tom
Praying strength for you and Gods peace.
much love,TW
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