Yesterday Mark and I went to our follow up visit with Dr. W. He gave the go ahead for the stitches to come out and also 2 of the 4 drain bags that I have not yet gotten used to (Thank God) My scar is fascinating...There were lots -and I do mean LOTS- of stitches to take out. The numbness in my chest may not go away nurse Laurie said, but I noticed that on the right side where the lymph nodes were not taken out, I felt little stings when she pulled out the stitches. When she pulled out the drain tubes, I definitely felt the burn of those bad boys coming out! 'Ow, Ow , Ow, " was all I could say. She was saying it too so that helped a little. Mark standing next to me as always holding my hand,I think...or maybe he was holding my legs so they would not come flying up and hurt poor nurse Laurie - accidentally of course. Chock that up for another new experience that I don't want to go through again, until the other two come out next week..ugh.
When Whit came downstairs to drain my 2 bags last night, it did not take as long and we studied the miracle of Dr. W's work.
My chest is slightly concave where my mammary glands once were. I did not feel anything much emotionally when I looked at the incision and I found that a little curious. Maybe it will hit me later. One of the nurses at the hospital said that some ladies will not even touch their bandage much less look at their scar.
The Lord has really helped me to KNOW that I am not a body part or a pretty face. Wow is that ever a great feeling! Thank goodness huh? Since I can count the strands of hair on my head and am now boobless AND the eyebrows and eyelashes have grown weary of hanging on , it is a dang good thing that vanity has taken a back seat in my life....see that...a back seat not totally gone :)
There have been a couple of days that I look in the mirror and the tears just topple over the bare lower lid because I truly do not recognize myself. Who is this critter that is staring back at me? Oh yes, I recognize you...you are the child of the Most High God...I remember you. Thank you Jesus, if you are for me who can be against me? I will live.
Tomorrow Summer and Wendy will weed my flower beds and all will be as it should be for that day.
Today, I meet my dear friend Vickie for lunch at Maple Gardens and I will stuff myself before my afternoon nap....yum...life I love ya...feelin groovy ...tra la la la
Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding
The first ring
Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!
Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.
4 comments:
You are still a pretty face though. LOL! I just know there has to be a good ending and a reason for all of this. I love you and I can't wait to read all of this in a book. It will make a great read with laughter and tears all together with faith in our Father in Heaven. Your other daughter
Julie I'm glad to read this and know you have such a wonderful attitude! you are truly one amazing woman! Tell Mark I have been thinking about u guys a lot. Miss u...love u....Janice from KC
Well Prima you still have your appetite and since your only vice is eating like you told me months ago that is something to be grateful for. It also keeps us fluffy!!! As we get older we just have to see ourselves as we were not as we are and remember if we are pretty inside we will always be pretty outside like my mother always says. Keep up your positive attitude and your faith in God and I am keeping you in my prayers. **Fina
I read your message, then I read Janice's. You both are amazing and we love you lots. Patti and Tom
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