The first thing that I thought of this morning was my surgery on Wednesday. I am trying hard to stay in today but I have to admit that I am feeling a little nervous.
Whitney, Julianna and I went to Lewistown for Autumns birthday party and that was a great time! Rach, Vern and Terra were there and it was great to see them at the festivities.
The week end went very quickly and it feels like the month has gone too fast. I have felt wonderful physically for the last week or so. Now it is time for my mastectomy and I am beginning to feel the dread of going through the recovery. This is the part that I dislike about human emotions, up and down and all over the place. I know that I am not alone and that I have all kinds of prayers going up to the Lord for me, but I really FEEL alone. I know that feelings are neither right nor wrong...they just are but dang!
This morning I read about how Peter started to sink in the water when he took his eyes off of Jesus. I really think that my eyes have been straining to stay on Him but too much going on in my head :(
I must remember the miracles that have taken place on this journey. How great is our God!?
Right now at this moment, I feel calm and almost detached from what is going on. I want to go back to bed and sleep but am not sleepy.
I will sign off now because I feel like I am going to start babbling about not a whole lot...
A new day awaits me and lets see what it brings :)
Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding
The first ring
Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!
Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.
7 comments:
I think about you all the time and mumble a little prayer each time..I woke up thinking about your surgery this morning too and know that you will go through it with the strength and dignity that you have shown in preparing for this moment. You looked great this weekend and I know everyone will be thinking of you and praying for you. Love you and Mark
The Word
By Sara Groves
I've done every devotional, been every place emotional
trying to hear a new word from God, and I think it's very odd
That while I attempt to help myself my bible sits upon the shelf
With every promise
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
People are getting fit for truth like they're buying a new tailored suit
Does it fit across the shoulders, will it fade when it gets older
We throw ideas that aren't in style in the Salvation Army pile
And search for something more to meet our needs
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
I think it's time we rediscover all the ground that we have covered
Like 'seek ye first,' what a verse
We are pressed but not crushed, perplexed but don't despair
We are persecuted but never abandoned
We are no longer slaves, we are daughters and sons
And when we are weak, we are very strong
And neither death, nor life, nor present, nor future, nor depth, nor height
Can keep us from the love of Christ
And the Word I need is the word that was
He put on flesh to dwell with us
In the beginning
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
The Word was the Word is and the Word will be
Here are the lyrics and name of that song I shared with you. You are so incredible Mother. I love your honesty. I think it is great that we have all the emotions and we can truly feel them and share them with friends and family. We don't ever have to cover them up, we never have to feel shame for them and when they feel overwhelming it's okay to scream at God. A friend told me once "Go ahead and yell He can take it". I have a tremendous amount of gratitude this day. Especially for you're story and for sharing it with all of us. Love you Lala!!!
You'll have smooth sailing, Julie. I am planning to be back home in time to help w/ home nursing things. It'll all be ok. Love to both of you.
I pray you see all kinds of blessings this day in the people and the world around you. It was so good to see Mark (sorry it didn't work out to see you!!) Our prayers will be with you! Love, Patti and Tom
I am thinking about you and Mark lots these days. I am saying lots of little prayers for you all the time. It will all be well! And I am hoping by the time we come see you in August you will be feeling so much better! (Did you know we were coming to see you in August?)!!
Sharon
OK Prima You have my prayers and remember you will always be as beautiful inside as you are outside. Your faith in God is amazing and I know that it will help you tomorrow.
Hello Julie, I know you enjoy Christian music like I do and one of my favorite groups is "Mercy Me"! This song is so special for you because you are beautiful inside and out!
Heavenly Father, I ask right now please that you give my sister peace. Let her know that YOU will be with her tomorrow and YOU will be guiding the physicians hands during this surgery. I also ask you please for a speedy recovery. Thank you Lord for your everlasting faithfulness,
in Jesus name Amen.
Love you Julie
Carla
BEAUTIFUL
Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much
Chorus
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful
Praying that you have the heart to fight
'Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross
Repeat Chorus
Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful! You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful! You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His
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