Today is the first day for my radiation therapy. I have been fighting a little impending doom feeling :(
I am not sure what it is but I have the feeling that this is a little bigger dog than the chemotherapy was. I have been taking the new meds so maybe that is what is causing the blah feeling. I wake up feeling like something is not right and cannot put my finger on it. Prayer sometimes is just "please help me Lord". I know that is enough... Mark has not been well and there is other stuff going on in my extended family but I know that there is nothing I can do about that so I just keep praying and giving it over to God...and then taking it back....and giving it over ...and back and forth.
Maybe it's the time of year...everything is dead and blowing away. Even our Lupe dog is acting strange. She acts like she doesn't know us when we call her to come into the house. She is so old and frail. HA! Sort of like I feel.
So with all of the positive that I can muster, here I go....Lord, can you hear me? A little nervous here...I am really trying hard to be glad that this is the last leg of the race but I am tired...maybe that's it....so tired. Tears? OK then, maybe a good cry will relieve the pressure.
Ok Flashlights and Firefly, remember what to pray for. Here I go ...
Will fill you in later on how it went.
Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding
The first ring
Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!
Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.
3 comments:
Day 1 and thinking about you, Love Rach
Good morning Julie. We have been thinking about you all weekend and your next hurdle and praying. Funny, all the things you described about the season and Lupe and feeling things are just not "right"...we have been feeling the same (even with our old man Journey) and we don't have the meds or challenges to deal with that you do! This sure would be a good time to go home with Jesus huh? All of this would not even matter. Please give Mark a hug for us, we are praying for him too. We love you both and we are keeping the flashlights going for you!
Love Smitty & Carla
Ok Prima I know it is hard to keep postive but remember that it will help your battle if you do. Your faith in God also helps your battle. I have seen it happen before and I know it is true. Remember you have us (FAMILY) if you need to talk and we are praying for you. I miss your long detailed corespondence. Love you** Fina
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