Just some thoughts....

I have been sitting here thinking about what it is that I am feeling....it is the evening before my last radiation session and I am sort of numb.  I feel a little nauseous (which is sort of a daily thing as of late) and I wonder how long it will be before I feel 100%.  Maybe this is 100% !

I can hear Mark puttzing around in the kitchen doing what ever it is that keeps him busy and I can faintly hear Logan and Julianna upstairs playing and laughing.  

There is something healing about the laughter of a child.  Sometimes they are belly laughs and sometimes just pure joy in life!!!  Makes me smile just thinking about them. They  are so real!  Last night I was visiting with Autumn and she very calmly told me that her daddy was pooping!! HA!  TMI Dana? Now blog-land knows that you poop!!!! Eeeuuuwww!

I spent several hours totally by myself at Set Free  this morning and it was a breath of fresh air.   It is totally a no-brainer 'volunteer job' but it is exactly what I needed.  It was me and no one else for a couple of hours!  Just me and the Lord and bags and bags of donations ;)  The broom and I kicked up quite a dust storm as I cleaned and prayed quietly  ( Sometimes not so quietly).  I tried to only give thanks and not ask for anything .  That is harder than it sounds.  
Greedy bugger that I am....

Tonight I give thanks once again for all of you that have been so faithful in lifting me up in prayer and for those of you that have blessed me in ways that only you and I will know about (and of course God knows too) .

I came home today and already the cards are coming in...   So thoughtful.  Mark and I were sniffing as I read  them to him.   


I think that I will get ready for bed....so tired. Mark is already sleeping! It feels like it should be at least 8:00! I will let you know how tomorrow goes. 

Booster update and # 31coming up!

Wow! Can you believe it?!  This Thursday is my last day of radiation!!!  The booster has definitely been doing something to my skin....I am getting a boost of radiation on the whole left side (scar)  My under arm is very dry and my skin  feels like it wants to crack.  Mark and I keep applying aloe gel to the area and it seems to be working like magic.  I believe that the Lord has everything to do with this ;)  

Yesterday in the dressing room I met a lady with non-Hodgkin lymphoma and she was sharing with me that it looked like 'it' had returned.  We had a great visit until I realized that Mark had been waiting for me outside...oops.  I didn't rush her though.  We wished each other the best and blessed one another.  I did not even ask her name and she did not ask me mine...but we 'knew' one another. 

Mark and I have become mall-walkers after our radiation.  We had a huge laugh while we walked yesterday making it nearly impossible to walk for a few minutes.  Long story short....He turned one way and I turned the other and we slammed into eachother.  I felt my glasses crack a little at the same time that the base of my neck did.   I didn't think we were walking fast enough to cause much damage but I really did think that my glasses were going to slide right off of my face. It felt kind of like when you see people walk into a glass door....that is what I think my face looked like...squashed!!! HAhahahaha! 

Gotta go get ready for my microwaving.  Thanks for all your prayers! Thank God for laughter :)

My last Friday

Today is my last Friday for radiation!!  Something weird going on with my eyes.  Can't make out some of the words on this blog.  Kind of like a delayed reaction to what I am typing.  OH OH.  Will have to mention it to the radiation people this morning.

This morning is my first booster day.  I asked why I was having this booster and they said that it will zero in on the scar where they removed the tumor because if there is a re-occurrence of cancer it will most likely be there.  Oh ok.  

Yesterday we (Mark, Summer and I) went to our first diabetes class.  Very informative.  One of my friends from Lewistown sent me some books on diabetes and I am all set up for a great 'read' :)  (if I can see;)


The day before yesterday we got to sit and visit with some dear friends and we had such a great time laughing and laughing.  We had not seen Tom since all of this excitement has been going on for me so he did not recognize me with white curly hair.   The look on his face when it registered that it was me was priceless.


Well Flashlights, keep lifting me up in prayer please.  There is an aura like something or other going on now but I can at least see the words as I am typing them.  No head ache just visual disturbance in the perimeter of my focus. 


Will let you know how the booster goes. 


Blessings and love to you all.
 

# 25 coming up, 6 left!

Thanksgiving was wonderful!  My kids and grand kids were here and I think that we all had a great time.  Tired babies by the end of the evening. Mark and I were pretty pooped too :)  

This morning as I was doing my meditations and devotions, I was reminded once again how the Lord allowed me to go through these last months of difficult times but He never left me.  He let me experience His peace which is beyond my human comprehension.  My devotional said " this peace is not just for those that handle stress well...it is for everyone!"  

I think this is the week that they will add a 'booster' to my radiation.  I am not certain what that is exactly but rest assured, I'm going to ask.  My arm pit looks like a black ham hock!  I asked Mark if he thought that the radiation cooks the under arm fat faster than the rest of the skin.  He looked at me like I had 2 heads! HA!  I think that if I had fair skin, my under arm would be flaming red.  My skin is not cracked or peeling so am hoping that it will stay intact and whole since I am so close to being done.  

I am poking my fingers when I wake up, after breakfast, before lunch, 2 hours after lunch , before dinner, and before I go to bed.  I'm missing one in there somewhere because Mark and I counted 7 times in the day.  We start our diabetes classes this coming Thursday from 1-3.  I am looking forward to those so that I don't feel like I have not a clue what I am doing except sticking my fingers and checking glucose #'s. What does all of this mean? 

Another journey into new territory.  Road trip!!  But I am not alone :)  I will draw near to Him. Amen?