Week # 5 for chemo

Last Friday I announced to my friend Carol that I was going to act like a chemo patient and take the day off on Saturday.  It has gotten to be kind of a joke that I am going through the motions of getting treatments , not to mention mastectomies, but am still doing what I usually did.  Just not at the same pace as before.  ANYWAY, since I said that,  I have had a deep ache in my hip joints and also a headache has taken up residence. Also when I fall asleep, I wake up at 2 or 3 and toss and turn so I get up and EAT what ever I can find in the dark....lately it has been graham crackers and milk...yum.
Honestly though I have been feeling a wall of fatigue starting to build up around me.  I have managed to climb over it because I felt like it was in my head and I do not want to whine and complain...I am a very good martyr when need be ;)  Aren't I wonderful? (wink - wink) My toes have begun to feel numb but not tingly.
SO!  Today when I weighed in, the scales tattled on my middle of the night grazing.  I gained 2 pounds since last week! Fatty! The nurses were so cute when they said 'oh but we don't want you to lose weight'.  What a set up for me....Wow! It does not get any better than that!
Dr. M seemed a little concerned when I told him about my toes. He said that I need to keep my feet elevated (like when I rest...snicker) and that if the numbness continues or gets worse we may have to take a break.  PLEASE pray that I don't have to take a break.  I would like to get on with this but I realize that it is all in God's hands.  If I have to take a break , I will take a break...simple as that. 
He also said that there is a shortage of the chemo that they are using on me and other ones as well, not just the one I am getting.  He said that they work great but that they are not the most expensive that is available so the drug companies are not making the money on certain chemo that is made so they are not making much!  AMAZING!  He told us to write to our senators, congressmen and representatives and complain.  He was on quite a roll today.
I am healing up nicely and am still doing my physical therapy here at home.  My hair is getting longer and I can see shades of black coming in.  I am still waiting for the long curly eyelashes :(  
Pray for Mark, he is moving rather slowly and he had a small episode before  our walk last Saturday. I realize that he is very worried for me and that keeps me trying to 'act as if' all is well with me.  My faith is still strong and I know that nothing happens to me that has not gone through the Father.  So I will continue to care for my husband and know that the Lord is taking care of both of us.  Keep praying ya'll!  
ALL things are possible to those who believe.