Aug.2012

Aug.2012
Mark and I ready for Blades wedding

The first ring

The first ring

Dec. 7 2011

Dec. 7 2011
the bell of Victory!

Reading the plaque

Reading the plaque
Patients ring this bell on their last treatment.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Hello Flashlights!!

morning of the surgery, spirits are high and her main concern was no make-up and no nail polish;)

Wife and Mother

true war buddies

new hat to keep her warm Nurse Ruth called it a jiffy pop hat.

I'm a little tea pot? I feel pretty? I'm not sure what was going through her mind


getting the pregame run down

"hey Mom are the drugs working?"

"why yes, they are"

waiting

hugs and kisses before they took her, this was the most emotional part of our morning...dang it.

Flashlight Kay

updating  Flashlights

watching her progress from the waiting room

sharing stories

acting cool calm and collected...like we should

...but not for very long. "where's my mother?!"

there she is. sleeping sound and going to kill me when she sees this;)


The surgery is done. We missed chatting with the doctor by just minutes so now have to wait until he makes rounds sometime this evening. Nurses have let us know that it went well and that she is doing really well. At first glance once she was out of recovery and settled in her room she looked lost. Like who were we and why are we all scrunched in the door waiting for permission to come in. She wasn't really that out of it she just looked it but really with an afro like hers and her piercing eyes she can really pull off any look she likes!
So, here is how incredible this day has gone. I arrived from Lewistown just after 6a.m and had a heads up from my sister Whitney where to go so I wouldn't have to text Dad or ask Mother specifics and give it away that I would be here. I walked in texting "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine" a minute later she text back "let it shine let it shine let it shine". I came into the waiting room and there sat my mother with Dads arms around checking her phone. This is important for you all to know so that you realize even if she does not respond to every text or answer every call she does get your messages and your prayers. Every single one of you are so important to our Mother. If she could she would call every single one of you and thank you and let you know herself. Every single one of you following her journey are important to all of us. Your prayers and your thoughts have kept her spirits up and all along we have heard how important that is in this journey. 
So...we visit a bit and before we can get "comfortable" a super fast, super friendly, super tiny blonde escorts us to the back so that she can be prepped for the big seperation. Putting in the i.v (which most needle experiences thus far have been painful unless Deanna has done them) was smooth as could be.Ruth was exactly what we needed at the front lines of today. In fact Mom didn't feel a thing and you could almost hear a bit of the tension float out the room. The next hour passed pretty quick with a few chuckles and a few visitors. A couple of the Yaya's popped in, dabbed some oil on her and we prayed. I swore on my drive I wasn't going to be emotional I was going to be a rock for my Dad since he was going to be a big sobbing baby that I would have to tend to. I wasn't sobbing but I had a few hiccup catch my breaths that could have led to some tears.  Anyway. We added some more laughter and through out our day Dad and I have done pretty good! Dr. Winslow joined the party and prepared himself with Mothers chart and asked if we had questions, ironed out some details ,like oh yeah it is a double, and then Mother asked "Are you going to pray?" Without a stutter of hesitation he assured her that we were and in a little room we joined hands. His assistant Amy took my hand and I took Colleens' who took Dads' who took the Docs' who took Mothers who took Amys'. I don't know why but this little circle was very important to me. He prayed for peace for Mother and for her family he prayed to guide his hands and calm our hearts. He thanked God for helping Mother in her recovery after the fact. He was grateful, humble, and confident. Then just like that he said "okay let's go". I was flashing pictures and trying to move out of the way and finally had my turn to hug and kiss my mother. This was a very very hard part. To watch someone take our mother willing into a painful situation and for Dad to watch his best friend go alone. I think he would have taken her place in a heartbeat.
Many God things have happened while this wonderful woman went through this. Pastor Rob stopped by and again we all joined hands only this time in a large waiting room with a few more flashlights. I noticed he didn't ask for a great recovery he thanked God for the great recovery already. He was also grateful, humble and confident. My family knows how to surround themselves with very cool people!
Now Mother is sleeping as sound as she can as nurses come in to drain this, check that, turn this gadget, check vitals and now have a shift change. They are really great here though. They have all really listened to her about the pain and as I listen to them talk about her they are very impressed with how good she looks compared to when she first got out. One nurse said "it seems that she has a really great support system and that is so important. She has a really great attitude too and I have seen some people in here go through less than her and not be near as happy." Way to go Mama!!! Way to go!
Please keep up the prayers Flashlights. I know as soon as she is feeling up to it she will update you on here. For tonight and tomorrow I think her and Dad will just need some rest. The word thus far is she will be home tomorrow afternoon. Also please add the Graefs to your prayers as they will be helping Mother and Dad through the recovery. Thank you thank you to all of you for all the help!!! YAYA!!!

p.s . It is important for me to share photos of this journey so that you can all see your prayers working and that she is still in great spirits and still positive and still holding her face to the light...if she can do it...;)

This is the day...yikes!

Ready to go to the hospital in a little bit. Am waiting for Mark and I think I have the Barney Fife look on and off.  One minute am secure in what the Lord is doing and the next it is OMG!  Right now I feel calm and I am sort of going through the motions of getting myself ready to begin yet another experience.  I had several text messages from friends and family that live far away.  Thank you all in advance for your prayers today.   I believe that I will not be alone in surgery (and I don't mean the surgical staff :)  I cannot get away from Gods presence...nice...  I will let you know how this goes today and all about the miracles that I will   take place.  Here I go....

Monday, June 27, 2011

...and the count down begins

The first thing that I thought of this morning was my surgery on Wednesday.  I am trying hard to stay in today but I have to admit that I am feeling a little nervous.
Whitney, Julianna and I went to Lewistown for Autumns birthday party and that was a great time!  Rach, Vern and Terra were there and it was great to see them at the festivities. 
The week end went very quickly and it feels like the month has gone too fast.  I have felt wonderful physically for the last week or so.  Now it is time for my mastectomy and I am beginning to feel the dread of going through the recovery.  This is the part that I dislike about human emotions, up and down and all over the place.  I know that I am not alone and that I have all kinds of prayers going up to the Lord for me,  but I really FEEL alone.  I know that feelings are neither right nor wrong...they just are but dang! 
This morning I read about how Peter started to sink in the water when he took his eyes off of Jesus.  I really think that my eyes have been straining to stay on Him but too much going on in my head :(  
I must remember the miracles that have taken place on this journey.  How great is our God!? 
Right now at this moment, I feel calm and almost detached from what is going on. I want to go back to bed and sleep but am not sleepy.
I will sign off now because I feel like I am going to start babbling about not a whole lot...
A new day awaits me and lets see what it brings :)

 

Pictures

Progress on the new outdoor seating...going to be awesome!



Flowers in the yard

Lala's entourage

cross of clouds above Lala and Papas yard

Funky Lala

Had to ask her to tame the mane so I could actually not crack up while we visit

Lala siting in Lewistown...Gorgeous!