Let the good times roll...



coffee and pie with friends (Kathy O. Lala and Autumn)

Papa M taking in a quiet moment with Autumn brushing her locks.

"Oh no you didn't!" she didn't say that it just looks like she did. The "C" has given her the gift of really not caring if we all see her hair...or she is darn good at faking.

comparing hairlines

a massage for Lala with my helper

well goodmorning...would you like your hat?

Mothers biggest flashlight

sweet hugs

a kiss and a secret?

Flashlight Wendy and her contagious smile

I wish I had a picture from back in the day when they all met to compare.
(Mike and Kathy, Vickie, and C.O.S Wendy not pictured)

June 29 details

OK, so Dr. W ( this is the doc. that prayed with us before he put my port in)  said that he wants me at the hospital at 6 o'clock on the morning of June 29.  I will be his first patient for the day.  I hope that is a good thing ;)
He examined my tumor and he was very excited that it had shrunk so much and that it's definitely not attached to my rib cage or muscle.  Also, he said that my cat scan did not show any other tumors anywhere else....good news and a great big thank you Jesus on that one!  Come on all of you shout AMEN and thank you Jesus! 
He told us that he will do a radical mastectomy on my left breast and a just 'plain mastectomy' on the right one.  He used more professional words but I cannot recall what they were.  Basically he said, that he will take out all of the lymph nodes on the left side (under the arm) as well because he does not want to take any chances with where the cancer was going when he first saw me...I will need physical therapy for my left arm and that we want to treat this aggressively.
He felt that Dr. M was going to wait a month before starting the weekly chemo sessions after the surgery.  The surgery will take about 2 hours and  I will spend the night in the hospital and maybe 2 depending on how I feel. ( I will need you, flashlights, praying for God's healing touch ).  He gave us worse case scenario, which I think he has to do but I am not going to repeat it because it will not happen!  
Mark teared up when Dr. W told him what I would go through and Dr. W patted his knee and told him that it was going to be alright and that I would be ok.  I teared up at the sight of my husband so worried about me.  He told me that he wishes that he could go through this for me.  I have a very sweet and compassionate husband.  I told him that I wish he could go through this for me too...HA! 
Now, more blood work and paper work and blah, blah, blah has started...so here we go again! 
So there you have it...a little update on my up coming bi-lateral mastectomy. 
Blessings to all of you today and I will 'chat' with you at a later date.

 

Hola and hello!!!

I cannot believe that it has been so long since I have blogged!  I can't say that it is because I have been super busy but I guess I have been pretty busy.  I am really enjoying the 'no rain' for the second day in a row.  
Today was a great day!  I was driving into Set Free and I said out loud "Man, I feel really good today". Just then I realized that I really have not felt well for over a week.  I have no idea what it was but 'it' is on it's way out I hope.  This week is when I have my appointment with my dr. that will be doing the bi-lateral mastectomy and I get to hear the details of what to expect.  I have to be honest with all of you,  I have had many moments of fear and trepidation in the dark shadows of my mind.  I guess I really am not liking the thought of having my flesh cut on.  
My patio is coming along nicely except now we have a big hole just outside of the sliding doors because we have a sump pump going.  When I stepped in a wet spot in our brand new carpet,  we realized that we had not escaped the water seeping into our basement.  We also have another very deep hole around the front of the house with yet another sump pump going  there.  Never have we had to do this in the almost 15 years that we have lived here.  BUT, we are still very blessed that all we have is a little moisture not actual flooding!  
Mark has been having some issues but all- in-all, our life is blessed. 
Joe and Wendy will be here Thur. to help work in the yard and am excited to see them.  Old friends...who else would come help do yard work!  
Mark and I took a little road trip to Lewistown last week and it was great fun.  A few of our old friends came by for coffee and pie and we connected with Mike and Kathy after many years of not seeing one another.  Lots of laughter and old stories were repeated and repeated and repeated ;) 
Keep me in your prayers this thur. at 9:45.  

Yesterday was a gorgeous day!  I was so excited to get out there and dig in the dirt and play with my dogs (or at least watch them run and jump). The excitement that I showed must have taken a lot of my energy because I was pretty much worthless.  I got tired very quickly. I guess I thought that just because I am not having chemo pumped into my body, that I  am back to normal in a week or so...where have I been ?  I said to Mark yesterday that I have had more headaches and flippy stomach in the last 3 days than I have had the whole time I have been getting chemo.  I have no idea why I am waking up with these headaches.  Except wait....do not have one this morning...thank you Lord! 
The sun was way too hot for me even with my big old 'field worker' hat on and the shade made the back of my bald head hurt from the cold.  I was pretty much trying to find my ' pace' most of the morning.  By the time I got up from my nap, I discovered that I have to be a 'shade follower' for a while.  No more direct sun for this old gal.
Julianna asked if she could help me 'weed' my flower beds (so much grass) and of course I said yes...my baby's breath is a little bit thinner now because if there are no flowers, they must be weeds ;)  Her attention span is about as long as her LaLa's so she was off playing in the mud with her new gloves on...she called it finger painting...smearing mud on a piece of wood. By the time she went in the house she looked like she had really worked hard!!! HA! 
Ryan worked hard cleaning under the deck and it looks great under there! Thanks Ry.  I have a very difficult time having others do stuff for me... I weave a mean guilt quilt.  I started beating myself up because I got tired so easily.  I like to work along side people and it was too much for me....notice that?  I , I , I , I....slipped into the 'all about me' cry.  Waaa waaa!
I remember that just a few months ago when I got the 'diagnosis', I was so grateful to be alive and that I was at total peace with ALL because TODAY was all I was given and the future was only for the Lord to know...how quickly we humans (me) forget and slip back into self crap. Forgive me Father. 
My yard work got started, my gonna be patio (under deck) got cleaned up,  the sun is shining, AND some friends from Billings (George and Mel) sent a gorgeous bouquet of flowers just because!!!!
Ps. 118 :24  This is the day which the Lord hath made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.